Well, received my Business Statistics Test in the early morning. Thanks god, I passed with the score of 38 out of 40. At least my hard work and effort did paid off. (: Other than that, school was still alright, nothing much to talk about.
JinZhu left for China this early morning. ): Due to the timing, I didn't manage to send her off. Still, she sent a message that really touch my heart. Regrettably she had already left, there's really nothing much I can say, just hope she will take care of herself and get well soon. We will be waiting for the day she is back.
As for now, life is really in a big mess! Unpleasant things are coming one after another. To be short, he left yesterday. The feeling is so sucky, that I sweared I can never find any word to describe it. It causes so much hurt when he's around. I have been thinking hard, do we really have to end up in such situation? Is this really my fault or yours? Where's the compromising we used to have? Where are all the promises? Am I having too high expectations from you? There is a saying that goes like this, 'If You Really Love Someone, You Are Willing To Change For Her/Him.'. Is this a myth or a fact? How true is this sentence? I don't know. Million of question marks pondered in my mind. Just for today, I hasn't be myself, I kept everything to myself. I used to talk to Her about my unhappiness, or even share my happiness, I didn't mention a single thing. Is not I don't trust Her, just I don't know how and where to start. I'm afraid I couldn't control my emotions. Whenever my phone rings, I pray hard it's you, but it wasn't. Could you feel the heartbreak? I doubt so. I'm truly sorry for what I had said to you. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Perhaps, that will be my retributions, I don't know. No matter how hard it is for me, I still have to accept it and overcome these setbacks myself. I don't know when will be the day when you will step into my life once more. Well perhaps, never anymore. )': I promised I will hug it as tight as I could every nights. Only if...