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Friday, November 30, 2007

BOOS! (:

Sorry, I'm back after so long!

Have been working almost everyday.

&I'm duper super tired.

Imagine yourself having not enough sleep&gonna work the next day!!! ):

Still, I know I must hang on there, cause I have my boy's support yeahs? =P

I'm having off today!

&So, I'm gonna rest&accompany my boy later. (:

Will update soon!

Seeya! (:

Expect the Unexpected
9:51:00 am

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Later having ChuShi in the evening. (:

&It will be a tragedy after that.

I have always wanting to know the truth, yet I have no gut to face &accept it. ):

Neverminds.

Let nature takes it course. (:

So, seeyas!

*All the best for your performance.

Please becareful, &make it a success once more, okays?

You will have my support though.

ILY*

Expect the Unexpected
12:12:00 pm

Friday, November 23, 2007

Yesterday - 221107

Went to ChongPang City with JinZhu to accompany ShiJie buy daily products again. (:

Walked to 123's temple for training after that.

Supposed to have a talk with ShiFu after training, but something happened.

&I cabbed home with Yingg after that. (:

Met up with Aileen &bused down to Bugis.

WTH! The journey was like fifty-minutes!

&I took a short nap on the bus. >.<

Went for lunch &we shopped for hours. (:

Trained down to Somerset after that.

Only managed to shop awhile, as Aileen had to meet her mummy at seven.

&I went back home myself. (:

Well, she will never fail to cheer me up everytime, regardless on the phone or meet-up. Thanks girl! (:

Ohhs yarhhs!

Cousin coming over my house to stay for five days!

&He had just reached.

Gonna share the same room with him for five days!

Gonna tolerate him for five days!

*Awws*

Anyway, I'm not going to be at home for the whole day.

Thanks god! Hahs! :D

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Christmas's Decorations Outside Parco! (:

THANKS GIRL! :P

Days Without You. ):

*SIGHS! He's leaving Singapore for Malaysia for three days. ):

Will you respond to me by then?

I just can't do without you. ):

Expect the Unexpected
9:12:00 pm

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Alrights! Good morning! (:

Wake up rather late, as was messaging somebody till two in the morning! >.<

Maybe going to ChongPang with Mum &Sister later.

Mum wants to buy some groceries as cousin is coming over my house to stay for five days!

OMG! I'm going mad with his sharp voice &playfulness!

I supposed I'm gonna suffer alot during this five days. ):

Thanks god. I'm not going to be at home during the weekends &start working next week.

Hahas. :D

&I'm having training this evening! (:

Expect the Unexpected
11:14:00 am

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Yesterday - 20/11/07 (:

Went to Globamatrix Building to collect working uniforms.

Had a hard time searching for this bloody building.

Went up, &was instructed to take a jab at a nearby clinic.

Returned back &collect suitable uniforms &bused back home. (:

Rest-ed ; Shower-ed ; Dinner-ed

Went to meet ShiJie &Calvin Kor to accompany them to buy some daily products.

Bused to 255's basketball court for training.

It was supposed to have WuShu's training, but ended up having Lion Dance's training.

Learned rather slow, as I went late &missed quite alot of things. ):

Still, I managed to learn something.

Yeahs. Lion Dance is fun! [:

It started to drizzle, &gets heavier after that.

Was told to stop everything &went into the little shelter to pack up.

Van-ed back to XiaoShu's house.

Changed &off to coffee shop for cheese fries. (:

Home sweet home then. :D

*Thanks for the plasters, Brenda! (:

Well, went to Orchard with sister &cousins.

Shopped, eat, rest are what we did. =.=

Thought could at least buy something or whatever, but never.

Made a personalised sticker, &tad's it.

Went home with sister after that. (:

Made by Brenda! Cool! :DDD

ShiFu, ShiJie, Calvin Kor, PeiShan Jie (:

Look! It's Jimmy! :DDD

Christmas Tree @ Takashimaya

LOLS! =.='''

Ling*Wen*Mei*

Sister-ship. :P

That's Us! (:

LOVES*

I am lost for words..

I miss you.

Still, I'm waiting for the day you will return by my side.

Expect the Unexpected
6:56:00 pm

Monday, November 19, 2007

When in a relationship...

At first, the guy will do whatever is being said.

But as the time passed, be glad that you haven't been kick aside like a ball. (:

Expect the Unexpected
11:24:00 am

Sunday, November 18, 2007

I'm rotting at home again!

No job! No money! Nothing!

I'm EMO-ING everyday. )':

Expect the Unexpected
3:05:00 pm

Saturday, November 17, 2007

16.11.07 - Friday (:

Having ChuShi in the morning.

Woke up super duper early at 0445 AM!

Cabbed down to fetch Delphia&PYingg, then back to ShiGuan.

I supposed we were the earliest, as XiaoShu was still sleeping soundly. =.=

Get changed&lorry-ed down to somewhere near Kallang Stadium for an Opening Ceremony.

We were early again&waited for almost an hour. =.=

Lorry-ed back to ShiGuan put things&ShiFu drove us to Sembawang for lunch.

&our next destination was Sembawang Park. :X

Something happened!

A few of us were swayed enough&kena thrown down into the water by ShiFu&boys.

Innocent me also kena, I was drenched!

Come to worst, I injured my leg, as it hit against e rough stone. =.=

ShiFu sent us back home&changed.

Gathered at ShiGuan at six again for another trip to Sembawang Park's Bottle Tree. (:

Fishing&catching crabs.

It wasn't as fun as what I thought initially.

Was rather emo for the whole night.

Went down to feel the breeze of wind&sea water with Brenda, YiXin&Delphia.

Have a talk with Brenda&Elvin while sitting on the sand. (:

Supposed to get back home earlier, but ShiFu didn't came to fetch us on time.

&the few surviors was stucked at the fishing port.

They were chatting away, &I'm emo-ing, listening to MP3 in one corner. ):

ShiFu came back at around twelve, &lorry-ed back home!

I'M REAL, REAL, REAL TIRED! MUSCLE ACHES! :D

BLISTERS & PLASTERS
All Thanks To ShiFu =.=

Bottle Tree. (:

The Breeze Of Wind.

Nice Star! (:
[Delphia`YiXin`Brenda`Me]

It's Meangingless, Afterall. ):

FUN DAY! [:

Expect the Unexpected
1:34:00 pm

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

HELLOS, back! (:

Had a long, long, long conversation over the phone with Aileen last night till morning two! X)

Three hours of conversation...

Gossiping is what the both of us did, &we enjoyed it!

&ended up waking up late this morning.

Met up with her, &headed down to AMK Hub again.

Once again, we bought our stuffs.

An I.P Zone's T-shirt for herself.. A shorts for myself..

Perhaps, AMK Hub is just our place yeahs? :D

There is training again tomorrow.

Well, will not be going anywhere in the morning.

I need to rest more! (:

*Hear No Evil ; Say No Evil ; See No Evil*
[Brenda ; Delphia ; JWen]

PINK PINK PINK (:

I Can't Get What I Want. ):

Love Me When I Least Deserve It, Because That's When I Really Need It.

Expect the Unexpected
9:02:00 pm

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Yesterday?

Headed down to Sembawang RC 418 for training.

It was supposed for us to train for Lion Dance, but ended up learning WuShu.

&the six noobs were like, "HUHS?!?". Hahs!

Still, we tried our best &learn the most. [:

Said earlier we were all noobs, we took quite some time to pick up the steps.

With our teamwork, we managed to do a nice one infront of ShiFu. (:

Jiayous girls!

All thanks for yesterday's training, &I'm having muscles' ache all over my body now! X:

&there is still training again in the evening today.

Hopefully, everything will be fine soon! (:

Seeyas! :D

Sighs.

I dreamt about it again.

I don't know when will this fear ends. ):

Out of the sudden, she asked me, "Do you still love GuanJie?".

I was reluctant to answer that question, cause that question is totally meaningless to me.

Why will she suddenly asked me that question?

Is she having any motive? Or he is having any motive?

So what if my answer is a yes? So what if my answer is a no?

So what if she know the truth?

No matter what, I'm not going to reveal my emotions to them.

Is he trying to assume every of my emotions &feelings?

&at the same time I'm doing the same thing too.

When will this assumption ends?

Perhaps, they are already together, &yet I'm the last one to find out.

It's really hard for me to let go now. Will your understand?

Neverminds bahs. Just be it.

Sighs. ):

当初我们就不应该认识彼此，我们跟不应该选择接受这段感情！

即然我们选择了，就应该珍惜与尊重对方。

我们曾经遇到许多，许多困难，好不容易才熬了过来。

一而三，再而三的，我们做了对彼此伤害很深的事情。

因为有彼此的包容与体谅，我们才能合好。

就在这关键的时刻，你却做出这样伤人的事情。

你还记得你曾经答应我的承诺吗？

我知道你不再爱我了，也不想挽回这段感情了。

也许一切已经太迟了。

我不知道要怎样面对你。逃避或面对？

我只好真心诚意的成全你们，希望你们会快乐。

冠杰，我还是爱你的，只希望以切能从来。

Expect the Unexpected
10:18:00 am

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Well, guessed I'm going to rot at home for the time being.

Having training at Sembawang RC in the evening at five. (:

Still hesitating whether to do or not. >.<

Goshs!

I had a dream last night! >.<

It just shocked me alive, &I sat on my bed for few minutes.

I know myself clear, it gonna happen sonner or later.

It's just the matter of time.

Sighs. ):

There are so many thing bottling up in my heart now.

I'm gonna let everything out here.

Hopefully, it helps. ):

Sighs..

Have I been thinking far too much?

Or these are just the facts waiting for me to accept it?

I don't know. These days without you are really tough for me.

I have seen the other side of you whereby there isn't any support.

Yet..

I have clearly see it with my bear eyes, &I have clearly understand my stand in your heart.

I'm just NOTHING as compared to others!!!

When you first saw me under the block, you ignored me completely.

Instead, you looked at her &gave your best smile.

I endured it.

So what if you are sitting right at the view where you can see me clearly?

Or are you sitting there cause you can take a better view of her?

I was all alone on the lorry, trying to isolate myself.

Have you see the other side of my life without you?

Is there a need for you to pass her your pouch right infront of me?

Eric requested me to take his pouch, fair enough, I took it on my own initiative &willingness, &you looked at me.

What does this action means?

Do you care? Do you mind? Or you don't at all?

On the way back, out of the sudden, you happened to appear just directly behind me.

I was feeling rather pressurized, cause I have lost the feeling of being close with you once more.

Memories of us flashed back every single second.

I couldn't control my emotions, tears rolled down my checks.

As instructed from Eric, I went right infront of you, just for the sake of the packet of Coke.

You looked at me at a pathetic look.

You turned your head &looked at me when I didn't went up the lorry.

Do you have the need?

On few occasions, you looked at me with that pathetic look again.

How do you expect me to react???

Yes, though I saw your actions &I heard your voice, I just pretend that I don't mind at all.

But do you how hurt &offended am I when you are doing all these things?

I can't probably express it to you or even cry infront of you rights?

You can do this to me once, twice, thrice, but it don't help if you repeat it over &over again.

You will only make tougher to forget you.

I have to admit that I have been looking out for you every now &then.

I prayed that nothing will happen to you. I prayed that you are safe.

Just like, after your performance, I have the urge of giving you a bottle of water, standing by your side to wipe your sweat, or even just to share the joy of success with you &gave a tap on your shoulder.

I know I don't have the right anymore.

Seeing you standing alone, it's really hurt me.

Perhaps, the three words, I Love You, should never appear in my heart from this moment.

Cause I know I will never get back what I want.

&waiting will never help.

Do you know how fearful am I when I dreamt that you are together with her?!

It's just striked me.

Perhaps, it's a thing that will happen either sooner or later.

There are many things that is just beyond my control.

I know I must let go now.

You have apologised, but I can tell you.

Your apology don't help at all!

Sighs.

Expect the Unexpected
11:35:00 am

I'm back after two days!
Well, just let's go straight to yesterday's events. (:
Let's see..

Meet up with Aileen again, &we trained down tuh Junction 8.
Was supposed to go for a job interview, but ended up didn't.
& we went shopping. =.=
Left at around twelve, &went to meet PYingg at NorthPoint.
Went to visit ShiJie &out of convenience, sent her some songs. (:
It's seem that baby Cavier has grown up. :P
After that left for ShiGuan to report for ChuShi.
Get changed&prepared to set off.
Lorry-ed from Yishun all the way to Bugis's area - Uncle Tiam's shop. (:
Then do the 'CaiQing' thingy& hab some light refreshments.
Received red packet from Uncle Tiam. [:
Afterall, the performance was quite well done!
Jiayou, guys! (:
As usual, lorry-ed back &pack up& set off ferhs dinner.
&home sweet home after that. (:
What a fun day ~! [:

*YiXin,,,
Cheer up! Smile! (:

ShiFu (:

The Members In Orange >.<

Two Gold Lion! Look Nice ~ (:

Ellona & Me (:

PYingg ^ Ellona ^ JWenn

THANKS GIRLS [:

PYingg ^ JWenn [Ellona avoiding camera!]

Expect the Unexpected
9:31:00 am

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

I'm back!

Headed down to City Hall to meet my cousin this afternoon.

As he need to pass his 'Time-Sheet' to his agency - TBC Hour Consulting Center.

Out of playfulness, I went for the interview at TBC!

Well, the interviewer was rather friendly&humourous.

Let's wait&see. (:

Then trained down to TPY Hub to meet Aileen.

Went for another interview at Kelly Consulting Center.

Again, the interviewer was as friendly&humourous as the previous one.

Both agencies claimed that they contact me by next week.

I shall be patient, wait&see how it's goes! [:

Finally, it's SHOPPING TIME!

Me, Aileen&cousin bused down to AMK Hub.

Cousin was rather bored as we are shopping towards the ladies' departments.

He then left us&went to his departments.

&the two of us continued with our shopping.

I bought a top&belt which cost me almost forty bucks!

Aileen bought her nail polish.

It's worthwhile anyway. (:

It's a fun day yeahs?

~~Gonna out with Aileen again tomorrow!~~

~~It gonna be fun too! [:~~

Here's just some random photos.

JINGWEN ; AILEEN

FRIENDSHIP LAST (:

ILY*
IMY*

Expect the Unexpected
9:17:00 pm

Good morning. (:
Woke up damn early at 0745AM.
All thanks to that particular person's message. >.<
&I'm doing nothing at this moment! X:

Arghs.
BORED ; BORED ; BORED
I'm really bored!

Stupidity ~

Expect the Unexpected
8:15:00 am

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

BLOGSKIN CHANGED!

Thanks Shirlynn, your help is appreciated! [:

Ohhs wells.

Went to meet PYingg after her Literature's Paper in the evening.

Initially, planned to go AMK Hub derhhs.

Then suddenly Rongg popped out of no where.

Ended up they two go dating&I headed back home ~ =.=

Tomorrow?

Meeting my cousin in the morning.

Since months we last meet up, due to his N's Levels&my O's Levels.

He is going to do shopping with me&find jobs.

It's gonna be a fun day, I supposed! (:

Alrights, I'm going to audition lerhhs. :P

Seeyas! (:

I simply hate this date. - ~~061107~~

It was supposed to be a nice&pleasant day.

Yet I'm suffering at home.

For once, I teared cause of you again.

I know it's a big mistake I've made earlier.

I got to endure it till the end.

I gonna let the whole world know that I still love you&I'm hoping for your return.

ILY, NGJ*

Expect the Unexpected
8:39:00 pm

WOWS!!!
I have self-declared that my O's Levels ended ~! :X
(Even though I'm left with POA Paper 1 on 13/11)
It's time for me to relax&enjoy myself lerhhs. :DDD
I must find a job, alrights? (:

Alrights.
I'm thinking of changing my blogskin.
&I'm busy looking for one.
Will be back soon! (:

Expect the Unexpected
1:50:00 pm

Monday, November 05, 2007

SOCIAL STUDIES PAPERS DOWN!!!

& just two more to go!

Science Paper One & POA Paper One.

Yeahs!!! [:

Social Studies was quite alrights.

Hopefully can make it bahs. [[[:

Weet-U-Weet ~!

Went to PingYing's house straight after exam this morning.

Cause SiHao helping her to dye.

& he helped me dyed my hair!

RUSTY BROWN ^^

Tried twice & yet the effect was not obvious.

Well, nevermiinds, shall try again in some other day. >.<

Anyway, thanks Kee! (((:

Tomorrow ;;; 6th November

Supposedly to be our two months anniversary.

But now... Haiis!

Do you still remember what you promised me once?

You promised me that you bring me out to enjoy & gave me the most memorable day.

In fact, you had promised me alot, alot of things.

Yet you can't fulfill them. ):

To be very honest, I still love you alot.

Every single memory you gave me etched in my mind, still.

I truly hope you will return after you clear your mind.

If you don't, I will send you my blessing. (:

*ILY, HGJ.

Expect the Unexpected
9:00:00 pm

Friday, November 02, 2007

EWWS ~
Physics Paper Two DONE! [:

*60% alrights ; 40% in doubts*

I'm left with only three more papers to go & I'm real free!

I just can't wait for that day to come!!! :D

Yaoyao went to find her darling&I went home.

I'm gonna rot at home for the rest of the day.

Hopefully, somebody will ask me out later.

Hehes. (:

Humphs.

There's training tomorrow.

Hesitating if I should go.

Having tuition at two.

Social Studies yet to study.

Well, may & may not turn up.

Depends ~

***~ ~ ~***

I'm very, very confused now!

Who can understand my feeling?

Seeing you being left alone really hurt me alot.

When will you wake up?

I know you treasured that group of boys, you acknowledged them as your brothers.

But the thing is, they don't acknowledge you as their "brothers".

For how many time did they make use of you to do things?

Are you going to continue your youth's life with them?

They are jus idleing away their time.

It's really time for you to find a job, if not get enlisted into National Service.

Can you at least think for yourself now?

There is no point for me to do anything, if you don't know how to think for yourself.

I just hope you will be more matured.

Three days passed&I'm still thinking of you every now and then.

Perhaps, we aren't suitable for each other.

Our mindset are totally different, & we are from two different world.

I promised that I will wait & hold on to this relationship.

I will be patient & see how thing goes.

Still, I love you&will alway do. (:

If you love something very much,

let it go free.

If it leaves you,

it was never meant to be.

If it returns,

love it forever.

-by Ms. Soh

I find this little poem very meaningful.

It matches my feelings now. :X

Expect the Unexpected
11:26:00 am

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Arghs!
Kena tua by Ah Guang!
Said that reached home will call me&till now still not even a call!
Damn fucked up!
Now stucked at home.
All thanks to him! >.<

The rest of them went airport fetch JinZhu.
I was hesitating if I should go since last night.
&ended up decided not to go. =/
You guys enjoy yeahs? (:

I'm still thinking about you every now&then.
Life without you really makes me go crazy.
Just like just now, called you just to look for Ah Bee.
&I almost cried out when I heard your voice.
Yes, I have to admit that you aren't the perfect boyfriend whom I am looking for.
But is the kind of relationship's bond we have built up since two months ago.
I just can't believe that you can forget about everything after we have overcome so much things together.
I have been thinking about it even during my examinations.
Sighs. I controlled you bcause I'm afraid that I will lose you, I don't want you to leave me alone.
I maybe smiling all along, the internal hurt inside me is just bothering me deep.
I still want you to know that I still do love you alot. You are just irreplaceable.

I love you.
I shall wait.

Expect the Unexpected
7:45:00 pm

Blog ; Blog ; Blog (:

POA Paper 2 this morning.
Never studied for it, and that's why don't know how to do. =.=
Managed to balance the Balance Sheet.
But balanced doesn't mean correct. ):
Anyway, it's over.

&&& Scienec Physics Paper 2 tomorrow's morning..
Siians! =.=

After that went to have a hair cut with PYingg.
Had our lunch at her home.
Use computer&gossip. >.<
Headed back home after that. (:

Ohhs well.
Should be meeting her during evening again. (:
Yeaps, that's all for now. (((:

I miss you, yet I can't do anything.

The feeling hurts.

Expect the Unexpected
1:52:00 pm