BOOS!
Just woke up from my sleep.
Once, slept at eleven & woke up at two to call PYing.
Was talking about so much things & ended at four plus luhhs.
Tired mans!
Neverminds, just two more nights to chat before school reopen.
Oops!
By using one hand, I'm able to how count how many days to school reopen.
Left with just only two days. Isn't that fast?
Has everybody done their holidays' assignments? Has everybody fully prepared to conquer the next lap?
I doubt so. X:
Have to switch from holidays' mood back to school days.
& that's means...
Must sleep & wake up early ; Do piles of homeworks ; Attend Triple S after school or even night programmes.
School's life is so boring when you have major exams.
Simply one word - SICKENING.
We know our priority now - Studies.
& it's definitely going to be a tough four months for me.
I only know it's a must & need for me to concentrate these critical four months.
It's so important & it can determine my future.
Sometimes, I'm just so lost.
So much things happened recently & I don't know what to do.
I need someone to be by my side to support me.
I can't do without friends, or even family.
Used to have him by my side in the past.
But he left me & leaving me feeling so helpless & discouraged.
Aren't he supposed to go through all these with me?
He said it for times & it had never happen once.
I got to be independent now.
Having these thoughts in me, sounded really scary.
I'm just not ready to fact the fearful reality.
Left with no other choice, I got to struggle through this period all by myself.
Four more months to go!
Endure!
Lastly, I got to say this.
I really need him back now & forever.
Is that ever possible anymore?
I don't know.
Yes, I've lost everything now.
How am I going to fight for them back?
If I were to quit smoking & control my vulgars & everything, will you come back?
Sighs. Millions of question marks are appearing.
Hopefully, I can pull through this dark, dark period. ):
& I am off for tuition lter.
Alrights, shall continue blogging tonight. (: