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Saturday, June 30, 2007

I'm rotting at home!

Never go anywhere.

& I'm chatting with RAY on the phone! (:

Thanks, boy! >.<

Expect the Unexpected
10:15:00 pm

Damn it!
I really can't tolerate such hot weather!
It's really super hot & I'm sweating profusely.
Yupps! AIR-CON & WATER! The hero. :D

Well, school is really boring!
Timetabe changed & lessons were reshuffled.
& I was still sleeping through the whole week.
I just simply not in the mood to study.
Humphs. Neverminds. :X
Ohhs yarhs! All Triple S/SDSP will start next week.
It's from two all the way up to five.
I seem to be so DEAD! :X
Approached Mdm Koh yesterday regarding dropping of AMaths.
She accepted my letter & insisted my parent to come down to sign the paper.
What the hell! So troublesome. :X

MONDAY NO SCHOOL!
& I'm taking my MTL Oral on Tuesday, 3rd of July!
YUCKY! :D

Supposed to ton with the group tonight.
But they going watch movie at town & heading down straight to OCH.
& I'm having tuition till four.
& eight people are going, if I were to join in, it will be odd number.
Well, not to spoil everyone's mood, I decided not to join them. (:
Staying at home.
Have fun guys! ((:

I will be back soon! :DDD

I Was Too Foolish To Love You Back.>.<

Expect the Unexpected
10:17:00 am

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Well, second day of school.
& I don't feel good on both days of school.
This sounds so bad. But what to do?
I'm just a student. & I can't do anything. (:

Yesterday, received counselling from Mohmad.
& I received another one from Mrs Teng today!
Am I lucky or am I unlucky?
I didn't attend my Combined Humanities & AMaths & went counselling for two hours.
Yupps. Mrs Teng made me say out almost all my problems.
She gave advises & made me think through of my every single actions.
Damn, damn upset & I just cried uncontrollably. >.<
Well, I'm just left with three choices now.
First, quit school.
Second, continue school with out him.
Third, continue school with him.
Yes, there will be consequences for every choice I made now.
To be frank, I wanted to continue school & complete my final year with him.
But I guessed, it will be impossible.
I got to accept the reality anyway. Few more hours to make my final choice.
First? Second? Or third?
Alrights!
I got to go.
Byes! (:

I may not be able to be by your side anymore.
I do hope you will wake up & start studying now before it's just too late!
I hope you can feel my love.
Take care, boy.

Expect the Unexpected
7:47:00 pm

Monday, June 25, 2007

Woke up at five-thirty this early morning, just to get to school in time! (:

School was damn boring today.

Well, there's a change of new time table with the effect from tomorrow.

Alrights!

Ending here.

Byes. (:

Wish me all the best for tonight yeahs? :D

Expect the Unexpected
4:49:00 pm

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Wake up at nine in e morning.
& I was doing nothing.
Waiting for time to attend my tuition at twelve yeahs?
I was still late by fifteen minutes anyway. :D

I was supposed to meet HYing to get her spare phone at two.
But.. She overslept!
I waited under her block for an hour with YaoDe. X:
Chatted awhile & headed back home. (:

Goshs!
Just few more hours to enjoy.
& school will officially start tomorrow!
It's e first day of term three.
Left four more months to O levels.
Perhaps, I will work extra hard.
Perhaps, I will continue to slack around.
I don't know. >.<
Well, just let me sum up my June's Holidays yeahs?
This was the most interesting & memorable one I ever had luhhs.
& yet was the most heartbreaking one.
One simple word - Happening.
So much things happened unexpectedly.
Just a big THANK YOU to those whom really filled my days with joys & tears!
Love you guys!
Anyway, jiayou everyone! (:

You are the one going to determine my happiness & sadness.

I love you.

Expect the Unexpected
8:26:00 pm

Saturday, June 23, 2007

You Are an Okay Student

You know how to get by school, but your heart isn't always in it. Motivation is a problem for you. Maybe you need to study something more exciting!

Your Nail Polish Color Is Red
How you're unique: You have an incredible eye for style and art.
Why your style rocks: You are classic and classy - and that's hot!
What this color says about you: "I'm smart, sassy, and sexy. And I know it."
You Should Be A Pisces
What's good about you: Carefree and compassionate, you are truly light hearted.
What's bad about you: When things get bad, you tend to retreat and not let others in.
In love: You're a true romantic - it's flowers, bubble baths, and candles all the way.
In friendship, you're: Eager to lend a sympathetic ear and likely to develop a deep connection.
Your ideal job: Bartender, magician, or secret agent.
Your sense of fashion: Simple clothes that don't distract from your personality.
You like to pig out on: Seafood - from fish sticks to salmon.
You Don't Have A Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy
When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch. Problem is, you're too shy for most guys to get to know. From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up. And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.

Expect the Unexpected
9:36:00 pm

Tuition sucks today.

Me, Fiona & Yvonne were irritated by three fucking bastards, okays?

JOON YONG ; HAMID ; RAYMOND.

They were like throwing those silicons towards our directions & happened to hit us.

Out of a sudden, Fiona just shouted at them.

Wahs! I tell you, the feeling is damn shoick larhhs!

Wahahas! :D

Went to Jurong's IMM with family straight after tuition.

I was like too tired & slept in my dad's car.

Well, almost all of the shops were opened.

They combined the two shopping malls & was so big larhhs.

Almost lost our way just now. X:

& I'm back home now.

Waiting for PYing to reach home & call me luhhs.

I'm bored to death!

Can anyone save me? (:

PYing said, "Fight Back Everything You Have Lost".

I trusted your sentence.

I hope that sentence of yours is sincerely true, okays?

I'm waiting for you.

I love you, boy. (:

Expect the Unexpected
8:41:00 pm

BOOS!
Just woke up from my sleep.
Once, slept at eleven & woke up at two to call PYing.
Was talking about so much things & ended at four plus luhhs.
Tired mans!
Neverminds, just two more nights to chat before school reopen.
Oops!
By using one hand, I'm able to how count how many days to school reopen.
Left with just only two days. Isn't that fast?
Has everybody done their holidays' assignments? Has everybody fully prepared to conquer the next lap?
I doubt so. X:

Have to switch from holidays' mood back to school days.
& that's means...
Must sleep & wake up early ; Do piles of homeworks ; Attend Triple S after school or even night programmes.
School's life is so boring when you have major exams.
Simply one word - SICKENING.

We know our priority now - Studies.
& it's definitely going to be a tough four months for me.
I only know it's a must & need for me to concentrate these critical four months.
It's so important & it can determine my future.

Sometimes, I'm just so lost.
So much things happened recently & I don't know what to do.
I need someone to be by my side to support me.
I can't do without friends, or even family.
Used to have him by my side in the past.
But he left me & leaving me feeling so helpless & discouraged.

Aren't he supposed to go through all these with me?

He said it for times & it had never happen once.
I got to be independent now.
Having these thoughts in me, sounded really scary.
I'm just not ready to fact the fearful reality.
Left with no other choice, I got to struggle through this period all by myself.
Four more months to go!
Endure!

Lastly, I got to say this.
I really need him back now & forever.
Is that ever possible anymore?
I don't know.

Yes, I've lost everything now.

How am I going to fight for them back?

If I were to quit smoking & control my vulgars & everything, will you come back?

Sighs. Millions of question marks are appearing.
Hopefully, I can pull through this dark, dark period. ):

& I am off for tuition lter.

Alrights, shall continue blogging tonight. (:

Expect the Unexpected
9:03:00 am

Friday, June 22, 2007

Well!
Woke up dis mornin & feelin abit sick.
Nevermiinds. Nobody cares anyway.
Mum & sister left ferhs grandparents' house.
I'm alone at home again. X:
Was browsing thru e photos in my fone & happened tuh saw e photo of me & him.
I was stunned ferhs a moment & started tuh break down.
Humphs.
Chattin wiib my darling, June, & eventually she knew abt everything.
Nevermiinds. Wen tuh meet her at NorthPoint & slackin around.
& she wil neber fail tuh brighten up my dae! (:

Was tryin tuh sleep last niite & PYing suddenly col miie at one.
She will neber fail tuh wake miie up durin mid-niite one luhhs.
Hahs!
Chatted ferhs sometym & Rong joined in too.
PYing actually bought miie back those memories. X:
Din reallie tok much bahs.
Broke down abit after we hung & tryin tuh go back tuh sleep.

Arghs!
Havin tuition for two hours tomolo again.
Siians ~

My group of fwens ;;;

Well, I'm really glad that I get to know you guys. You guys really remind me of unforgettable memories. Those joys & laughers we shared together. Every moment we spent together are precious to me. I stil could remember those days whereby we hanged around FunLand, Yishun CC, 925 coffee shop & even Chilli's house. Those fun we had together once. Whenever I'm feeling down, your will never fail to stay by my side & cheer me up. & I really appreciate it. These were times when I was still together with Sky. That was the most happy moment I ever had as I have my love one & friends surrounding me anytime, anywhere. Thanks for everything!

But things started to change now. I wasn't the 'happy-go-lucky' girl anymore as you guys can see. The story of me & Sky had somehow ended unexpectedly. You guys know I just can't accept the reality now. I could just break down at any point of time. Every now & then, I feel that I'm bringing unhappiness to you guys. Whenever I'm feeling down, I know that my emotions are indirectly affecting your. Initially, I thought that whatever I do, you guys will never care or bother. But lately, I found out something. I went to smoke that day & upon knowing it, you guys reacted & rushed out to stop me. I was stubborn & refused to surrender the whole pack. You guys really make me feel the presence of your. A big thank you! (:

HIM ;;;

Perhaps, this will be the late message I'm writing for you now. I'm going to say out every single emotion & word that is in my heart. Whether you see it or not, that may not be that important anymore.

Till this point of time, I still love you as much as before. My feelings for you had never fade before. People have been giving me negative comments about you. I know those comments will not do me any good if I were to ingore it, but I told myself that no matter what, I must trust you. & I did it. We had really been through up & down of our relationship. I'm really glad that we managed to overcome them one after one, either together or alone. I won't denied that you was the one whom brought me out of the darkest periodl. & yet you was the one whom really pulled me all the way down. Every single word you said to me & every promise you made to me really mean alot to me. I take them seriously & I trusted them. Never did I expect you to break them one after one continously. Every promise you broke, it really break my heart into shattered pieces. Yes, I still remembered that I did promise you several things. I broke afew of them & you were disappointed with me & hurt by me. Can you ever imagine those feelings?

I could still remember that I once promised you that I would not smoke anymore. I broke it eventually. I started smoking again. It didn't cut down, instead it started to get more and worst. Sometime, I asked you or your friends for a stick, you will always warned them not to give me any. I feel that I'm really loved by you once. But I disappoint you by smoking behind your back time after time. I know you don't feel good when you see me smoking away. I just don't feel the pain you are getting. Nevermind. I even promised you that I would not be so vulgar anymore. And again, I broke it eventually. I have really changed alot recently. I used those unpleasant words anytime and anywhere I like. It had somehow become part of my daily language. Yes, you was right to call me a stranger in that message. I was just a stranger to you. And nothing else. Even though you tell me once that your temper isn't that good, and indeed you really lose your temper again and again. I beared with it and even initiated to apologise and calm you down. Did you ever notice and appreciate it? All I ever wanted was just your full attention. I wanted you to know that I'm lacking of something. Do you understand? I'm really afraid to lose you once more, but it happened. I wanted you to stay by my side and I wanted that sense of secure. I wanted you to overcome the O levels fear with me. I wanted your encouragements. I wanted you accompany. And I wanted you to love me wholeheartedly. Are all these so hard to give me? Do you know I really miss you presence, nagging and everything? I treasured every single moment you spent with me. I treasured everything you have done for me. I used to be so unappreciative, I hate you whenever you nagged at me or controlled my actions. I regretted, and I really wish I could hear your nagging and feel the control again. Every moment you spent with me are just so memorable and precious. I even loved those times when you raised your voice and shouted at me, though I'm really hurt. You will never fail to brighten up my day. But for now, I have made you so damn angry with me. There is nothing I can do now. My word of apology will not help anymore. I don't know what are you thinking every now and then. I do wish to know too. Every night, I just cried uncontrollably. Cause I know I have done something very wrong and I'm going to regret for life. This was infact the shortest relationship that I ever stepped into. You was the one whom I held on and waiting for so long. You was the one whom I really appreciate. And you was the one whom I loved the most! And yet you was the one whom hurt me so damn deep! Loving you is really so hard and I have conquer the difficulties. I have really said more than enough, I don't know what I'm going to do next. Is my waiting going to help anymore? I doubt so. Sigh. I don't know how am I going to overcome this period again. Nothing will help, execpt you. All I know, I just need you, because you have just somehow came into my life and I just can't let you go. I'm just too stubborn, that I can't allow myself to let go everything. O levels is getting nearer and nearer. And I have yet to do anything about it. And so are you. I'm feeling worry for you and me. Can you make it? Can I make it through? Sometime, I just feel like giving up my O level. I may or may not regret, I don't know. Yes, I was hurt in this relationship time after time. I'm just strong enough to overcome those hurt. I know I regretted and I blame myself for not holding you tight enough. Perhaps, our contact had ended. I supposed you simply hate me for what I have said that day. I'm sorry. Wil I be able to make a request? Can you return to my side once more? Nevermind, I just hope to see you study hard and take care of yourself. (:

Honestly, I just wish you could see this long message.

I'm really scared! Will you understand my feeling?

My endless tears.

Expect the Unexpected
10:57:00 am

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Hahs!
Jus finished studyin wiib Ms Pang at Maggie's house yeahs?
She taught us Chemistry - Redox & Organic Chemistry & Chemical Analaysis.
Studied ferhs straight three hours!
Hopefully, it iish a gud start ferhs miie bahs.
It was norts as borin as wad I tot lorhhs.
Luckily miie siiaL. =D
Though I'm norts in e mood tuh study, but at least I reallie tried & settled down & learn something bahs.
I reallie do hope e other of my fwens will oso settled down & start studyin bahs. (:
Wen tuh Chong Pang ferhs lunch wiib Maggie.
& walked al e wae tuh NorthPoint.
Wen tuh Burger King & chat ferhs one hour plus bahs.
Headed home after tad. (:

Well, let's refreshed my memory & shal blogged abt yesterdae.
Wen tuh PYing's house after returnin back school.

Uhhs. Her dad was at home lorhhs.

Den lyk siians yi ban liiaos lorhhs. X:

Stayed in her room & listened tuh her story.

Ken feel tad she abit emo bahs.

Wish tuh accompany her, but was rushin tuh meet my parents ferhs a haircut.

Sorriies girl. ):

Wen back home bath & wen tuh meet her again.

Cabbed down tuh Chilli's house.

As usual, e whole group of us meet at his house lorhhs.

Ferhs e first tym, we were rather early. X:

Feelin abit emo & lied down on e sofa.

Neber did I expect he tuh cum up & knocked on e door larhhs.

& I was lyk 'GOSHS!'.

Cos e sofa which I was lyin down was jus directly facin e door lorhhs.

He gave tad ignorance look & walked awae liiaos.

Tel euu, tad feelin was reallie hurt!

Ji tao wen tuh e staircase emo.

Cried uncontrollably & smoked seven sticks within one hour.

Unexpectedly, he was jus two storeys above miie larhhs!

He saw miie smokin awae. X:

Accordin tuh dem, he messaged PYing & tel her tuh pul miie awae & dunch let miie smoke.

Ferhs a moment, I was touched.

But I knoe tad means nothing!!!

Worst part was, he din wan tuh see miie & he was sittin downstair al along.

Jus waitin ferhs miie tuh leave.

After tiinkin ferhs awhile, I initiated tuh leave first, jus ferhs him.

I din wan him tuh be sittin alone downstair & I din wan my presence tuh affect him.

I cried uncontrollably every niite.

Wen will he turn his head back & take a glance at miie?

Does he knoe al dis?!

Well, nevermiinds.

Cabbed home & cried in e toilet ferhs sometym.

Terrible dae!

Hab a chat wiib Kaori late at niite luhhs.

& gorts tuh knoe many, many things.

Those lies he lied tuh miie!

How I wished I could jus take it I din knoe anything at al.

I was actually cryin wen she told miie al dis stuffs.

I was hurt deeply!

Nevermiinds bahs.

Leave miie alone & do anithini I wan bahs.

I hab already given up on myself.

I'm reallie strugglin thru, fwens!

Expect the Unexpected
12:45:00 pm

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Woke up at five dis mornin!
Which iish jus three hours ago yarhhs?
Alriites.
I'm off tuh school in an hour tym!
&&& tad PYing was on e fone wiib him ferhs three hours!
&&& dey meetin todae worhs!
OMG!
Comfirm mus go KPO liiaos! =DDD

Expect the Unexpected
8:18:00 am

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

HAHAS!

Woke up damn early at seven in e mornin!

& guess wad?

I actually headed down tuh school tuh study Maths wiib Ms Khoo!

She was supposed tuh giib miie a mornin col at seven derhhs.

But in e end, she overslept & instead, I was e one whu wake her up larhhs!

Humphs ~ -.-''

Well, Ms Khoo picked some questions from TYS & instructed miie tuh do.

From dere, I knew tad I hab already forgotten everything I hab learnt last year.

Poor thing! She hab tuh teach miie from stretch. =/

Shaiful & his fwens came after tad & we studies together.

Hab great fun luhhs!

Took some photos & wil upload soon.

& I left at one tuh meet HYing outside school.

Sho nice of her tuh cum all e wae down & waited ferhs miie.

Indeed, e feelin of somebody waitin ferhs miie iish great larhhs!

Too bad, she iish a girl! =D

Walked al e wae tuh Golden Village & hab lunch at Long John Silver. =)

Slacked around NorthPoint awhile & wen tuh find Chilli at 291.

Wen back home after tad & HYing wen tuh meet her fwens.

HYing, thanks ferhs e whole afternoon! =)

Well, din managed tuh meet PYing todae.

She cun go out again. =X

Hab a chat wiib her thru fone dis evenin.

Surprisingly, I found out something tad reallie hurt miie sho damn deep.

I shall norts elaborate on it liiaos. =(

Sighs!

There are really, really, really many things that hide inside my heart for quiet some time.

I have many things to say out, & yet I don't know where to start from.

It just happenned within a short period of time, just three weeks.

Well, I got to admit that life wasn't fair at all in the first place.

I got to face up my fate anyway.

I don't know if I am hurting myself or I am hurting others around me.

I wasn't given any chance to say out things.

Yes, you was right.

I started the conversation with her & I provoked her.

I was just simply AFRAID that her words would touch you & I will lost you anytime.

I am JEALOUS, because I knew she still love you alot.

Theoretically, I was in the most fault now.

I supposed she did nothing to me, & I started to provoke her.

What can I do now?

Should I apologise to her?

Yes, I will.

But we are just impossible anymore.

That's according to what you said.

Just because of my messages.

Aren't the facts & reality I'm talking about?

I apologised for my harsh words.

I really need alot, alot of time to recover this time round.

The hurt I'm gettin now iish reallie twice the hurt I get previously!

You may or may not see this.

It perhaps doesn't bother me anymore.

I'm tryin to let go everything.

Everywhere I go, so much of the memories actually just triggered by.

Sorry.

Expect the Unexpected
9:00:00 pm

Monday, June 18, 2007

Alriites!

Slept at around four dis mornin & woke up at around ten plus.

Six hours plus of sleep onlie. =X

Haben been sleepin well recently larhhs.

Well, was intendin tuh return school study wiib Ms Khoo derhhs.

Den she niid tuh leave early as she gorts an appointment at around three.

Everything was cancelled cos of dis in e end.

Was plannin tuh rot at home todae derhhs.

Col up PYing & dey were attendin KPin father's funeral & wil be goin Rong's house after tad.

Since I neber attend, sho she suggested we meet up at CCK MRT Station & go Rong's house together.

Supposed tuh meet at two derhhs, kena tua by dem!

I reached dere around two & dey were stil at Bishan larhhs.

I waited ferhs lyk forty-five minutes & dey said norts cumin down liiaos due tuh some reasons.

I was sho damn dulan jus now larhhs.

But after tiinkin thru, dey wasn't in fault lorhhs.

I din attend e earlier funeral & therefore wasn't able tuh understand their feelin.

Well, I apologised - Sorriies.

& I'm now landed at Desmond's house.

Usin his computer. =X

He col miie up jus now tuh ask where iish Chilli.

Cos he voice sounded rather weird & I questioned him back whu iish he lorhhs.

He ji tao hung up my col!

WTF larhhs!

Liddat den attitude tuh miie.

Forget abt it uhhs.

Perhaps, I'm reallie tuh let go everything lerhhs.

Though it iish hard, but no choice. =X

Well, should be leavin soon.

Shld be goin tuh find e group at KPin's house bahs.

Sho, see ya! =)

Expect the Unexpected
4:03:00 pm

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Well, it's e end of a week again.

Tym flies sho damn fast, as if no people business liddat larhhs! =X

Jus left exactly one week & school reopens.

& tad's means O levels are gettin nearer.

Sounds scary riites?

Sighs!

Wad tuh do?!?

I'm stil norts motivated & norts in any mood tuh study.

& obviously, I wasted my one whole month of holidaes!

Nevermiinds bahs.

Stayed at home ferhs e whole dae after returnin back from tuition.

Tried a few POA questions & I gave up larhhs.

I knoe nothing.

Wen tuh take a nap after tad.

& tad's how my Sundae passed! =X

PYing ; HYing ; Ke ; Chilli ; Rong ; ZYong & e rest wen tuh funeral again.

As usual, I din followed dem sho stayed at home & rot.

Dey wen pretty late & din wan tuh join dem liiaos. =X

Ohhs well, I simply miss dem sho damn much! =P

Tiink endin my entry here bahs.

Norts in e mood tuh do anything, serious.

Perhaps, wil update again lter at niite bahs.

See ya! =)

Expect the Unexpected
8:38:00 pm

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Time flies, & I hab yet tuh find someone tuh tok tuh.

Perhaps, dis iish e place whereby I ken reallie pour everything out once.

Sighs.

Jus let miie start from e very, very start bahs. =)

After two months of strugglings & sufferings, he finally returned back tuh miie.

Obviously, I was feelin sho happy & jumpin over e moon larhhs!

I told myself, I mus reallie treasure him & love him wholeheartedly.

I even told myself tad I mus changed & make up my mistakes in e past.

Well, I did my part as his girlfwens, by doin e riites things.

I accompanied him almost everydaes.

I sacrificed most of my personal tym accompanyin him.

Jus lyk goin out wiib his gud fwens's house & FunLand & etc.

But as e tym passed, everything changed!

All he knoe iish jus his FWENS ; GAMIN ; WORK!

Nothing abt miie at all!

As a result, I started tuh lose my temper & attitude lerhhs.

& quarrels start tuh get into our waes.

Ferhs once, he raised his voice & shouted at miie.

Tad was e first tym ever.

I tot I was reallie in e fault & I made e first step by apologisin tuh him.

Even after tad, he neber even apologised ferhs shoutin at miie lorhhs.

Nevermiinds. I keep quiet & I bear wiib it.

Dere was once I wen tuh tel his ex abt our quarrel's issue.

Okays, I ken understand tad he dunch lyk it.

& again he was angry at miie & completely ignored miie ferhs three daes.

Tad's was partly my fault, I apologised.

He was sho damn egotistic larhhs, I still bear wiib it.

After tad three daes, he initiate tuh meet up.

Well, I agreed & we headed tuh Chilli's house.

WTH.

All along, he neber even open his golden mouth lorhhs.

I was jus followin him behind, as if I'm his dog liddat!

Finally, I cun stand & I messaged him: Wait til euu wanna break wiib miie, den euu message miie.

Fair enough, he neber reply miie at tad point of tad.

He tried tuh tapped miie, but I ignored & I walked straight up tuh Chilli's house.

He ji tao jus sat behind tad BITCH & was sho damn happy larhhs.

I walked awae & neber tok tuh him.

Den e group of us wen tuh CC as dey wanna play basketball.

As usual he ignored miie & continue his flirtin wiib tad BITCH larhhs.

I diam diam.

Jus before I reallie erupt, I shouted at him.

I shouted: Break den break, I dunch care!

I supposed he heard.

He was feelin abit moody after I said tad sentence.

While Rong was walkin miie tuh interchange, HYing & him suddenly was behind us larhhs.

& he claimed tad euu gorts things tuh tel miie.

Since he initiate tad tok, I jus jolly well followed him & sat down.

He wasted my forty-five minutes by sittin next tuh him & see him teared.

Despite of askin him nicely wad happen & etc, he jus refused tuh sae anithini larhhs.

Nevermiinds again.

Wen he was abt tuh leave, I held back his hand.

HE SHOOK AWAE MY HAND twice & walked awae!

& tad feelin was sho damn hurt!!!

I wen back after tad, tiinkin he would followed up, but he neber.

I sent him messages late at niite, in returned, he col miie back & shouted at miie again.

& tad marks end of everything.

& in between, tad fuckin bitch came in & messed up everything!

Nevermiinds.

I dunch wan sae abt tad bitch.

Sighs!

Everything seems so blur to me.

Everything changed completely, that's include me & you.

There wasn't any compromises.

There wasn't any sense of secure.

For only you think that I was still that stubborn & didn't compromise.

But did you actually calm yourself down & think it through?

I even made the very first by apologising to you when you shouted at me.

How much sacrifices I have made ever since we patched?

How much time I have spent with you & with my friends & my family?

How much scoldings I have received by my parents for returning home late & etc?

For how long must I tolerate all these?

For how long must I endure all this by myself?

When will you feel my tears?

When will you hear my crying every now and then?

When will you stop ur cold treatments?

I wouldn't deny that I still love you alot.

But you are trying to push me aside & make me set you free.

Every single of your words and actions hurt me so deep.

You should know what promises you made to me.

And yet you broke one after another.

You left me once, I can accept that.

You left me twice, how the hell am I going to accept it?

You said you are not going to leave me, stayed by my side & etc.

Are all these empty promises?

I'm really feared of those hurt!

Perhaps, this will really be the last time we will be together.

I don't want to get anymore hurt from you.

Enough.

Both parties are in fault now.

Your attitude & temper simply sucks & as well as mine too.

I seriously hope both of us will take time to calm down first before making any further decision.

I LOVE YOU, YJH.

Expect the Unexpected
9:55:00 am

Wen tuh grandparents' house wiib mum & sister early in e mornin.

Din wen dere ferhs almost haf a year liiaos larhhs. =X

I was feelin sho damn bored at dere & locked myself in e room listenin tuh MP3.

Well, nothing much abt it.

Wen back home at around four.

Intended tuh go PYing's house derhhs.

But upon knowin tad Rong goin tuh find her, den I dunch wanna be tad lamp post.

Bath & straight headed tuh Chilli's house again.

Ke & China & Chillie was already dare watchin some lame VCD.

Dunch knoe wad Zhou Xing Chi derhhs. -.-''

Gorts no choice, but tuh join dem lorhhs.

& suddenly Rong poped out of no where larhhs.

But overall, was stil fun.

Den around eight plus left Chilli's house & headed tuh KokPin's dad funeral liiaos.

While waitin ferhs Chilli tuh get something from his fwens, we were slackin at e playground.

Den dey were tokin abt miie & his things & suddenly China tel miie tad no matter wad he jus wun forgiib miie dis tym round lerhhs.

Tad sentence reallie hurts miie alot & I held back my tears.

Neber did I expect, Chilli meetin him tuh take something.

I was sho damn nervous & feared tad he would shout at miie again.

I was chantin tuh China al along larhhs.

It was sho nice of him tuh calm miie down & was tokin tuh miie tuh distract my attention.

THANKS!

Well, I supposed tad he saw miie from a distance but he ignored miie completely.

I jus held back everything to myself til I saw PYing.

I ji tao broke down wen she reached lorhhs.

Den sways sways let Chilli saw it.

Despite of him tellin miie nicely, I ignored him. =X

Kena scoldin from him again.

No choice but tuh wen back tuh join dem.

Den tad SiHao damn cute, okays.

Chilli tel him tuh take one box of tissue paper ferhs miie & he reallie go take & placed it infront of miie larhhs.

His actions & everyone's reactions were lyk wanna laugh den dunch dare laugh derhs pattern lorhhs.

Hab a tok wiib Chilli after tad.

Actually, I wanted tuh pour out everything on him derhhs.

I jus dunch knoe where tuh get started!

& I jus keep quiet, let him tok.

Honestly, I feel no much better lorhhs.

Sighs.

Hang dere awhile den cab-ed back home. =)

Well, I should reallie thanks tad group of fwens whom were reallie by my side al dis while.

Though some of dem din sae a single word, but I appreciate their presence. =)

PYING ; HYING ; KE ; CHILLI ; RONG ; CHINA ; ZYONG ; RLIANG ; ZJIE

THANKS, my dear fwens!

Expect the Unexpected
8:59:00 am

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Muahahas!
It's e second entry ferhs e dae.
I supposed tad dis will be a damn long entry.
I'm too free & I hab tons of things tuh blog yeahs! =D

Well, meet up wiib PYing & HYing dis afternoon.
Headed tuh Orchard - Hereen.
OMG! Guess wad?
We bumped into MDM KOH in e train. -.-''
She boarded up at Novena wiib her fwens.
She dressed sho damn funny larrhs.
Tad PYing go snapped her reflection.
& we were jus gossipin around luhhs.
I supposed tad she recognised us lorhhs.
Tad's all abt her.
HYing bought her white lil handbag & we left lerhhs.
Headed tuh Bugis tuh get my bag. =X
After some tym, we left & wen back tuh Yishun.
Wen tuh Chilli's house tuh find Ke.
& everything start tuh go wrong from dere. =(

Ohhs well, took bus 811 tuh Chilli's house.
Tuh by surprised, e whole bunch of boys were at his house.
& he was dere!
Actually, I din wanted him tuh knoe I was dere derhhs.
But tad Ah Jie go tel him & tel Ah Jie tad he wanna tok tuh miie.
In e end, Ah Jie wen tuh work.
I was hesitatin if I should go find him anorts.
I din eventually.
Instead, I avoided him & wen down tuh playground tuh find PYing, HYing & Ke.
I avoided him becos I knoe I wasn't able tuh control my emotions wen I see him & I din wan tuh break down infront of him.
Slackin around at playground.
& PYing & Ke was smokin awae larhhs!
Wahs! Damn fcuked up wiib dem larhhs! =X
Nevermiinds.
After awhile, it started tuh rain luhhs.
& tad three monkeys refused tuh go shelter.
I took their belongings tuh e shelter.
& he came down.
He stood down dere as if he din see anithini larhhs.
By tryin tuh get his attention, I jus walked in e rain tuh join dem lorhhs.
Obviously, e four of us were drenched!
Well, he din respond & walked back tuh Chilli's house.
Wen up Chilli's house tiinkin tuh get umbrella ferhs dem derhhs.
Saw him again, walkin out from e kitchen & he wen off after tad.
Sways enuff, I kena from Chilli first.
He damn fierce larhhs.
Upon knowin he was angry at us, tad three monkeys finally came up.
& again miie & PYing kena from him continously. =X
Miie, PYing & HYing escaped from him & took a cab back home liiaos.
& WTF.
HYing lost her phone larhhs.
Hope she will norts get any scoldin from her parents.

Sighs!
Sho much unhappy things happened during this June's holidaes.
One followed after one another.
After two months of struggles, we managed tuh get back together.
True enuff, I was damn happy!
I tot everything will turn out tuh be fine or even better.
But I was wrong!
I get hurt again & again.
Wen will al dis hurt ends?
Perhaps, everything will happen iish becos of tad two bitches' presence bahs.
I tel euu: I REALLIE, REALLIE HATE UR LARHHS!
Especially, tad CURRY FISH HEAD! FUCK EUU!
Sho much things tuh mention bahs.
Cryin out my heart jus tuh relieve e pain & hurt in miie. =(
I shall end here ferhs e tym bein.
& will continue tomolo mornin.
See ya! =)

Expect the Unexpected
8:58:00 pm

A big HELLOS tuh everyone! =)

Finally, I'm back wiib my bloggin!

It's all thanks tuh PYing's itchy hand.

Hahas!

Well, I haben been updatin my previous blog lately.

It's all due tuh some fcukin reasons yarrhs.

Nevermiinds.

I'm habin a new one aniwae.

Sho, it doesn't matters.

Updatin a new entry later.

Well, stay tune tuh my blog!

See euu! =)

Expect the Unexpected
8:51:00 pm